gothfvcks_dreams

I was hanging out with my mother somehow and I decided to make a salad. All we had that was still edible to include was lettuce and tomato. She said to add some peanut butter. I thought it was gross but good at the same time. It's something I never thought of doing before.

After we enjoyed our salad I went into the city and jammed with some people. It was actually a dude rapping with drums and a keyboard so I grabbed my bass and we rocked for a while.

I went to a friend's party and all the usual people were there. I walk into the backyard and PixelPink is going to take a picture of us. Afterwards I end up talking to KateHate and she says something about a nipple or something growing on her leg, her thigh to be specific. She said it wasn't exactly a nipple but it felt like one and was equally sensitive when she touched it and it started growing recently. She didn't have a problem with it, it was just a little weird. I wanted to ask Jammer if he knew about that but I'm not sure I ever got the chance.

Later on around dusk I walk to the front of the house and on the stairs going up from the basement there are coloured florescent light bulbs laying on the ground. There's a red on, a blue, another blue and a green near by. We're wondering why they're there and how they got there. PixelPink is with me now and her husband Curly too. One of the hands me a semi-automatic gun, I am never sure if it's a water gun or a real one but I point it at a little girl walking down the street towards us. I ask how many rounds I have and I think I have plenty but I'm told not to shoot at her so I don't. Other kids are running towards us now too. She draws something in the stars and says "Oh, that's for Demetrius". That pretty much concludes my night.

A group of Spanish speaking people moved in next door recently and their English isn't very good yet. Their accents are too think for me to easily comprehend. They asked if they could borrow something, I was like "a what?". But they wanted a fan, a large or ceiling fan and I had one. It is too hot out for them and they're having people over I think, probably a moving in party so they need to cool the place off.
I went to get one and I ran into my old boss Maya who I know can speak Spanish so I was very happy to see her and told her that I had to keep her around so she could translate. Haha. She was bashful and shy about it saying she hasn't spoken the language in a long time and isn't that good at it anymore which I know isn't accurate.
We went for a drive, I'm sitting in the back of her SUV and it starts to rain. It has to be raining, a huge storm. Back at my place everything is flooding and there's a couple feet of water. Dirty, undrinkable water. I walk around it on the raised pathways as much as possible but decide to drive in anyway and it's not too bad. Of course, I keep my eyes and mouth shut tight. Everyone's trying to get all their stuff out and trying to get away from the pools of water outside, now leaking indoors. I brought the neighbours a ceiling fan at least.

I've been talking to my guild leader, Ezili, much about stuff. Mainly in game. I won't go into details here about everything of course. So... we were chatting, then I said good night, logged into my other character on accident, some people said stuff then I left.

Today I went for a walk and decided to try and find a place that had some nature rather than all filthy cars and pavement. I ended up at a very small patch of woods next to a school with a tiny bit of water flowing through it. Actually it was more like liquid pollution but let's call it water. I was walking around in the woods and I notice there's a squirrel on the ground so naturally I try getting close to it and once I do I notice he or she is laying on their side and not going anywhere so I move closer. Closer still until I'm right next to him/her and that's when I realize they're injured. It looks like it might be a broken leg or hip or maybe they're stuck somehow in the sticks on the bottom of the tree. After examining the critter with my eyes I decide to try and move a stick but not help. Then I grab another stick and attempt to help roll him/her over and maybe, hopefully, they can move on their own again. I think this only made things worse. I feel terrible. This whole time I'm talking to him/her trying to sooth and saying not to worry much if possible. I've been in a similar situation so I know how awful this is. He/she start whimpering and breathing heavily. After a few more minutes and a short reiki session I decide sitting here is not doing any good so I walk as fast as I can back to my house where I can look up some places to call and see if anybody can help. Nobody answered but one place gave me an e-mail so I gave that a shot. Ten minutes later I see I've got an automated reply saying that somebody will get back to me in the morning and their office hours are 8am-4pm. I replied with an e-mail asking what good it is having an e-mail that I was told to use after their regular hours if nobody's going to get back to me until the morning anyway. A few more minutes later I see I've got a real response with instructions and information on an emergency vet only a few towns over. A short response later and I'm grabbing a box, a shovel, keys and running out the door to grab the poor fellow. How great would it be if I could save somebody's life? It'd be great in a way because I had a broken leg and now I'd get to save somebody else who has a broken leg. Unfortunately when I get there he's not moving, his eyes are cloudy, wide open and still. "hey...hey, I'm back. I'm sorry" I say. Too late. He's moved on to the next part of the circle and I say to myself something about hoping his remains will benefit another and I stand there for a few moments in silence before I walk away with a clean shovel and empty box.

I was watching my sister, she was only a few years old. We were outside and there were a bunch of plants. I told her she had to stay away from a few of them because they were deadly. She didn't but she was okay. We went inside later and she went into our parents' bed to sleep, I ended up in mine for a while. I woke up sooner than she did and went in there, she was quite warm and my hands were cold so I put them on her back. Later on my mother came in from work and they went to sleep. I went back to sleep and when I woke up I ran around and heard some gun shots. When I got into their room I discovered that both of them were dead. It wasn't my fault because I decided to sleep in my own room, what else was I supposed to do. Death had caught up with her and taken another as payment for postponing.

Last night I went to the store with my girlfriend, her friend was there, not working but he worked for the store. I was going to steal from the store except I ended up stealing over a hundred dollars and a card from him. I don't know why really but I went into his car and took a wad of cash. I felt bad later when he told us that he was missing a bunch of money. I said that it was my fault for having him come out and since he came out for me I'd replace at least most of what he lost the next time I saw him.

Actually, on the way there we were driving and she decided to stop at some farm/weather station thing to take pictures and great a reading of the weather for some game she was playing.

Somehow it came up that she was sort of seeing her room mate. She was dating him too but not really. I think this is why I stole from that guy, it must've been the same one but that wasn't my point of stealing-it was supposed to be a Robin Hood thing as always.

I don't know why I worry about these things, there's no reason. But, if I recall that's why she hasn't been around much lately, she's been hanging out with him.

Notes to self quickly.

house that stole cars. next to a park of sorts. cops around. they tattooed my arm.red & orange fire. gave me a gun and told me to go home. i did. came back. got a different gun. think i got my car back at some point.

great grandfather didn't want to drive down sunrise so called cabs & us. he was too slow , couldn't see well. felt bad. took him to some acupuncture place to get orange needles stuck in his face.

I was on a school bus riding down the highway, I decided to get out while we were moving and it was like we were standing still but I knew that we were driving at normal speed. So, I'm outside and I'm walking towards the back of the bus and there's another bus or two, one where the driver has his arm out of the window and it looks like it has a string attached to it connecting it with the ceiling inside the bus. I keep walking and there's another bus driver that's falling asleep and some announcement comes on - no idea from where, maybe inside the bus from a loud speaker? - it looks like there's a red flashing light coming from the inside roof of this guy's bus and the lady on the speaker is counting down as he's falling asleep. she also said that there's insulin or something for him to take and that'll keep him awake. i guess he's got diabetes, he doesn't take it though and he falls asleep or something. I think his heart rate was also dropping, guess it was more like fainting than sleeping. The whole highway was filled with buses or at least the two lanes I was able to see.

So apparently my girlfriend has been hooking up with her female friend and what might be her friend's boyfriend every week. They just went into the shower together as usual and she went down on him. At first I wasn't too happy, then I didn't really care as long as it didn't take away from mine but then it didn't sit well; just made me feel uneasy. I was sitting there on the bed thinking that I invested too much into this and what if she was no longer interested? Things just weren't working out and we didn't make it? Where would I live? How would I continue school? I'd have to move and work full time, don't know if that'd even be possible. Now, this would be okay if we talked about it beforehand since we've got a mostly open relationship anyway but to find out after it's been going on is not cool.
When she got out she said she missed her pets and she wanted them in her dorm with her.